Sometimes change is hard. It doesn't matter what the change is, it is just hard for people when change occurs. Shoot, I hate getting changed out of my pajamas most days. I guess my point is this. Change happens. For whatever reason it does. Sometimes it is for the good and other times it seems it is for the bad. Often times change has to happen for God to intervene. God is the one constant in all of our lives. God remains the same. And usually about the time you think God isn't there something happens. God is amazing. He uses things in our lives and events in other people's lives to fix us. I mean let's face it, we are all broken. We all sin, we all make mistakes.
I think about my life and the changes that have occurred. I remember when I came to the lowest point in my life when I was completely broken. It was near the end of college for me. I enjoyed my 9 years of college, probably a little too much. Something had to change. My life was empty. It wasn't rewarding. Something was missing. I knew it was God. I remember pretty clearly (which is amazing considering what I was like at this point in college) working at Giant Eagle in Morgantown and meeting this new employee, Stacey. She lit up the room. I think it was her smile. She had a way of comforting me even then. So I started to talk to her about me, she was a great listener. I just talked and talked and talked. I can do that you know. She listened and before I knew I was headed to church with her. You see, Stacey took the time to listen, she didn't have too, but she did. I mean she probably did because I am pretty hot, but I think it was because Stacey is a great person.
Recently, I filled out some paperwork for Stacey and then we reviewed my answers to her answers and they were quite different. It is funny how we view ourselves. I am sure we are not as good as others view us, but not as bad as we feel about us. It was just like when I met Stacey, I viewed myself as something I was not. The reality is God knows us, he knows our heart, he knows the person we want to be. The problem is sometimes we get in the way or our time is different then his. So instead of trying to make change we need to let God make the change. As for me, I want to change, I want to be the person God wants me to be. So I am going to change and I am going to stop and listen to God for awhile. Change will happen. It always does.
